Early morning musings and troubles
I’m here at the Amtrak station here in the Haymarket of downtown Lincoln. The time of spring break has happened and college kids everywhere are just super happy and excited to leave and go do whatever the fuck the little mongrels do.
Me?
I’m going home, but I have more concerns than anything to be honest. I’m still hoping for an internship where I can sharpen my skills. I have some leads, and I’m excited about those. It’s just the initial part.
I don’t want to go back to Chicago for summer to be honest. I have no desire to be a bouncer and deal with the entitlement crowd. Everyone’s a tough guy and every girl thinks they’re hot, especially in Wrigley. I cannot deal with the attitudes. I will if I have absolutely no choice, but it’s not something I desire. I also don’t want to live with my aunt. Don’t get me wrong, I thank God for her and her opening up her doors to me, but it’s just not something I want to go back to either.
Also, college is expensive. Really fucking expensive for all these out of state students. The general feeling I get is that Nebraska (and I’m sure other schools) give a fuck if you come there if you’re out of state. They may get off charging $610 for every credit hour. But they hook up Nebraska residents and the way that out of state residents are treated is absolute bullshit. Gives a discount, set something up for us.
But since it isn’t there, fuck it. I’ll just work my ass off and bust doors down.
If I do have to go home, I can possibly knock out summer classes and that inches me closer towards my goal. I may also be able to get some freelance work too. So it’s not a total loss.
I want to stay here and graduate, I like here. The people here are good. But it seems like I’m really gonna have to fight and pray on this one.
Or maybe I should just quit bitching and do work.
Who needs a job? It’s 2 p.m., and you’re on Tumblr, so we thought you might. We want to help…
(Reblog for your broke-ass friends, too, yeah?)
I like this.
I feel like I’m going to implode on myself. I think I just need to chill, but I’m having a hard time just doing that.
I may have to go into turtle mode here after Monday.
Somewhat disgusted at myself, just need to push a bit harder.
School is tomorrow and I’m semi nervous. I have two of my biggest weaknesses in the same semester.
Math and Spanish.
I can deal without both to be quite honest, but I just have to bust ass and get the work done. First class is at 7:30 am Monday-Friday. and i have at least 2-3 classes everyday.
I hate spring semester because it’s what I call the “grind semester” There are no real big breaks or holidays outside of spring break and everything just seems slow. I’m hoping that since I have something outside of school to get ready for, this semester will go fast and I stay focused on class and training.
Oh yeah, I need to find internships…………
2011 was a good year to me. Anyone that follows me on facebook, twitter or even know me personally know that I had some rough spots, but made it through (Thank you GOD!!)
But it just seems to me, and not to go off on a tangent, that a lot of people I come across or that I’m connected to need to do a lot of soul searching.
Why do I say that? Well, everyone is having a hard time, it’s not just you or me, EVERYONE. And if people say that aren’t, they are a lie. How do you get out of this? Just change your mindset a bit. I preface that by saying everyone is different and have different things they are struggling with, so do the best you can.
Eliminate words from your vocabulary or combos of words. Personally “I’m tired” ,” I don’t give a fuck”, and “I don’t think so” will be gone from here on out. I will try my damnedest to eliminate those because what you say has a tremendous impact on how you act and think.
There’s more, but I’m becoming to long winded. Bottom line, if you think your life is shit, it’s not. Your thinking is shit and you need to change it.
Grind hard, play harder.
Nice and sunny day today. And by this time next week, I’ll be headed back to Lincoln. There is a bit of excitement but also a little bit of apprehension.
I’m nervous about taking my two biggest weaknesses at the same time.
I’m nervous about picking up the Tech Beat for the school newspaper.
I’m nervous about getting internships. And I’m nervous that I won’t be able to work at the same time as them. What people are not understanding at school is that people are not gonna let you stay with them for free while you work for free. If I can pull some part time work while I do an internship, I’m in. If not, I’ll make a radio show on my own this Semester.
The internship bothers me the most. How the hell am I supposed Ro survive working for free?
But I’m confident I’ll be able to get something.
Streets were semi quiet this morning and they are definitely quiet now with Christmas Eve ending and the day that most of us have been building up to is upon us. I’m sitting here and just listening to some Christmas music and just thankful for what I have.
I havent received a gift on Christmas in YEEEEEEAAAARRRRSSSSS……but gifts arent what the day is about. For believers in Christ it’s a day we celebrate the birth of Christ. For non believers it’s another day but with the added benefit of spending time with friends and family.
Either way is ok in my book, but let someone know you love them today. That you may have disagreements and such, but thats life, and the love you have for them will not go away.
kobe is soon to remind everyone why he is still the best in the game….
Example of a ho ass.
(via iamoverdressed)
Hustle and bustle of a pre Christmas eve rush hour makes me smile on the inside.
